I dream of …..

I had a dream the other night. And she was in it.

 

 

It has been a long time. I don’t know why she was there, but she was. As with all my dreams, it wasn’t sexual. I wish it was, though.

 

She was one of my ex girlfriends. In the dream, she was giving me grief for one thing or another. I was talking with her because she and her husband were moving to Hawai’i. I have no idea where that came from.

 

What my issue is that I don’t ever think I let her go. I made decisions in the past, good and bad. I treated her poorly. Not physically abusive, mind you, but rather emotionally and mentally. It was the abuse I had grown up with, and I let myself fall into that trap.

 

She is happily married, and so am I. So, I am not looking to hook up with her or anything. Nor do I want to spill my guts and tell her personally how I feel or something sappy and selfish as that. That would only hurt both of us, well, maybe just one of us.

 

I do miss her greatly, though. Perhaps my sub-conscious is bent on reminding me.

 

Damn me.

 

Damn me to hell.

 

L8rs